This is a blog about my year in the Jesuit Volunteer Corps and my subsequent semester as an English ed grad student, as well as my current existence as something less defined. It’s also a blog about being a recent college graduate/twentysomething trying to make some sense of the world. But mostly it’s a blog about me, my thoughts, and my life, because I felt like claiming a corner of the Internet as my own. Moreover, I’ve noticed that a lot of people leave off writing after college, and I kind of wanted to pick up the narrative where they left it. My experiences may not be representative of my generation, and my words may not be perfect, but they’re all I have to offer, and I’m offering them here. Enjoy, leave comments, and please be considerate.
Being that this is the internet, I’m abbreviating people’s last names and the names of organizations. If you’d like to know more about anything (including any questions about JVC or WWOOFing), then feel free to ask. My email is wildflowerfever (at) gmail (dot) com. Also, I’m slowly adding links to the sidebar. If you’d like me to include your blog or LiveJournal or whatever, just let me know. Sadly, a lot of what I’ve linked to is no longer updated.
(3/11/09, updated 9/27/09, 2/4/10, 11/27/11, and 11/19/13)
Older “About This”:
I’ve put off starting an online journal for a long time—about four years, to be exact, which is as long as I’ve known they exist. I didn’t want to be tempted to use it as another futile outlet for things I would rather tell people in person, and I didn’t want it to become another means of reaching out into the internet world for some spectral semblance of human contact when I get lonely in the middle of the night. It also scares the crap out of me to be posting anything remotely meaningful to me online, because I’m opening myself up for criticism, and there are a lot of nasty people out there on the internet. So why am I finally starting one? In a way I think I just want to give back—over the past four years, the things that other people have written have enriched my life. Their writing was usually good, and sometimes it was amazing, but I think it was their sincerity, more than the quality of their writing, that left such an impression on me. Now I’m adding my own words to the cacophony of disembodied internet voices, so that my fellow bored and lonely late-night web-surfers will have new reading material and new experiences to draw from. I’m going to do my best to be sincere and to be myself, even when the rampant imperfection makes me want to go crawl under a rock.
I’m also starting this, theoretically, so that my friends will have a way to keep up with what’s going on in my life when it’s hard to keep in touch. …And finally, I’m starting this because I’ve noticed that a lot of people seem to stop updating after college, and I figured I’d sort of pick up the story where they left off.
The title is a reflection of the state of pretty much every aspect of my life right now. The result of graduation is that I no longer have any idea what I’m doing. About anything. …Hence “uncertainty.” Admittedly there is little art to my uncertainty at the moment, but hopefully that will change as I learn how to deal with this whole “life after college” bit.
To conclude: I don’t really know what I’ll be writing here yet, so I’m not promising anything. But you should read it anyway.